If one day Baby :) is happy
Is the day that she is with her only one
That would be the only time

If one day Baby :) is the happiest and luckiest and most loved girl on earth
JANEEN IT ISN'T VERY NICE TO POKE INTO MY SCREEN THANK YOU VERY MUCH
It'll be the day Baby :) and Baby :D
Are finally
After so so so so long
Together... Forever... One.

Unbreakable... it was never breakable.

While Baby :) is hurting
Baby :D is tearing up apart.

While Baby :) is smiling
Baby :D is beaming

While Baby :) is crying
Baby :D will be crying so so much. Even harder.

While Baby :) feels weak
Baby :D is so much more fragile

Everytime Baby :) gets it bad
Baby :D will always have it harder.

Now Baby :) is gone.
Baby :D is even further away.

Ok i'm going to watch match today.
So far.
But yeah it's important so i'm definitely going.
Today.
You won't see me smiling much.
Thursday.
More like Tearsday.
Baby :) thought that Baby :D would be her proper friend.
In the end.
It's all shattered
Never gonna be the same again.
Hatred.
Anger.
Revenge.
What else?
Baby :( now really gonna take revenge with the help of Pretty Minnn'
Baby >:( is obviously not gonna be happy.
Gonna be But only true love is forever.
To be continued...

Ok so that's part one of this storybook i'm making.
Emoshit la you all sure say but i think the names very cuuuute.
Haha.
Baby.
Maybe??
TAO YAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-the day you slipped awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

I want to be able to walk down the dim-litted streets
With the cold him freezing me through..
and say
"It's enough..."

Ah hua bu yao ku qi
Yin wei ta bu zhi de ni de yan lei

Dear God,
Bless the person who wrote this.
The handwriting is cao ugly.
They put it on the net somemore.

I’m sorry but right now I’m in no particular mood to continue on my shopping list.
Sod it.
Wednesday
Laughing during D and T --- The fuckerizing paper convo with Qiqi.
Laughing during Chinese --- 220 ‘hahhhhs’ Credits to Mingen. U rawk (:
Laughing during recess --- I dropped a 20 cent coin into Annabelle’s Laksa. Oops. It was a dirty looking 20 cent coin. Old one. Eww.
Crying for the rest of the day.
What a change in emotion.
And omg I better not miss it this month.
Audwee missed it for 9 months. Whooo.
And jovina burst the erm. Nvm. HAHA. There are male readers reading this very sentence too kaes. Yup.
Now my life’s like heaven.
Wow I love my life. (:
Hurh hurh.
Ah Hua.
Not a word to anyone please…
Although I know you’ll tell ruiqi
IT’S A GIRL THING, BOYS.
No it’s not physical thank you very much.
Seriously guys.
KEEP OUT.
LAY OFF.
Crime scene.
Lol nvm.
Puzzles me really.
Piece back the pieces.
My heart was never whole to begin with anyway.
Jovina, seal it too.
Confidentiality.
Please respect it.
And for once I do not want or need retail therapy.
I just wanna………………………….

Har har har today funny sia lol.
Bad day yeah urgh DON’T ASK
Started tearing in his arms for no apparent reason.
Ok everything’s ok I assure u.
Just that my day didn’t go so well.
But sitting with QiQi during English was fun lar.
Bad thing was that I broke my water baby haha.
But then Qiqi really can cheer people up la.

Lurrrbexxx!!!
<3 Chris! -duhhhhhh haha
<3 God - cause I need him to strengthen me everyday and He does
<3 My MVP Valentine ep. 3-5 – cuz watching them with Chris is really funnn. And though it made me cry… hey wait. I’ll dedicate a post specially about MVP la. Haha.
<3 Daniel – MY BRO AHEM. Cuz for once in a looooong while he said something nice to me…
<3 Prokofieff’s Valse – cuz that’s the only piece that I seem inclined to. I think. Oh wells.
<3 My “High School Musical” new pinkie blankie – mommy bought that ever so comfortable blankie for me (tho it’s abiiiit small) a week ago. And it rawwwks. Will load a pic of it no prob. Noooooo it doesn’t have like Troy and Gabby on it snogging or something cause I definitely will NOT sleep in one of those so stop squirming. Haha.
<3 The new list of songs in my tablet now from Qiqi Leong’s phone (see I lurbbe her haha chris don’t get jealous she’s a girl. XD ok retarded heehee) – it keeps me company for a period of time while waiting for MVP to load. (:
<3 Friendster – Come on Nathan Hartono accepted my add on Friendster and REPLIED MY COMMENT. Gosh. Shall not say more if not arhh Hahaha… you know la. Up to your own imagination what my reaction was. *innocent!*
<3 The fact that I managed to complete my Pythagoras Theorem during maths class today
Wow there’s so much to say and loads more that’s better left unsaid.
So here’s the list of the opposite:

DO not like Piano lessons – ohhhh I loathe it. “HANNAH! Your FINGERING!” others are better left unsaid. You should know better.
Hate Cool clock at Faraday Lab – the magical countdown was supposed to be a much more happier occasion. THE BELL WAS SUPPOSED TO RING! But the stupid clock was faster. We didn’t know. So I was like 5…4…3…2…1 aaaaaand… sigh no magical moment to chiong out of class. Maths class somemore.
REALLY HATE THAT “tigress” too.
Mirrors at the Faraday Lab?? – nooo I’m not gonna start going on and on about fat thighs and legs but I do not like feeling like an extra in the midst of camwhorers. Haha. Happy happy.
And what else can I dislike? Talking about what I dislike on my blog.

Oh well.
Bella Morena
Ciaoz.

the oreo cheesecake. Haha.

Yeah then at night while mommy and Daniel was at Yamaha, Chris and I were near the HDB blocks there the little cirle area in some er garden. So confusing haha. Yeah anyways he brought the other oreo cheesecake again so we could take picture. Earlier didn't take. Haha. So we lit up the candle again and we took picture. Everytime I attempted to take then cannot see the cake. In the end he took then can see the cake. Hurh hurhhhhh... hahaha. I am a loserrr. So funny then after we had our cheesefries and pepsi I think we went back to the library and started laughing alot again. Hahaha. wheeeeeee so happy (:
Even we met for less than an hour... I must say it's really worth it... And I really treasure the times we spent together <3

Then we went home. Hahaha.

haha so where did i left off?
oh yes... so after the whole oreo cheesecake drama off went me to buy a present. It'll either be a shirt or belt. But i think belt nicer :)) anyway Chris only got one belt... use over and over again somemore. Everyday except first sunday. Hahaha.
The first shop I laid eyes on was 'Accesorize'
WOMG 1/2 PRICE OK! ENTIRE SHOP!!! BUT I DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO GO IN AND BUY STUFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I COULD ONLY STARE IN AWE AT THE GLAM CLUTCHES AND MILLIONS OF ACCESSORIES. :( PFFFFT.
So this missy here stepped in the get a feel and breathe the beautiful accessories air in :) NOT RETARDED. wow 2nd post and i'm still on Friday. How like that... sure die haha.
So yesh. I went around the first floor of the nice shopping mall and for once and my focus did not shift to my own stuff heehee. I went around frantically searching for a decent gift that Chris would like and actually use haha. So I went down to the Marketplace area and saw Billabong. So I went in and singled out a few nice t-shirts. But I thought they were too common. So i picked a belt. But before purchasing I went around to more shops and found myself in Crumpler. Wah. Haha. But I decided on the belt in the end haha. So yeah bought the belt and zoomed straight to the taxi stand AND TRIED REALLY HARD TO NOT LOOK AT THE 1/2 PRICE SIGN AT ACCESSORIZE. hurh hurhhhh. And drama at the taxi stand again. Stupid. I do not want to talk about it to prevent further um. Aggravation. Yeah.
Then as I was approaching school I waved frantically to Khoo and she was like (?0?)/ haha. so cute. well then i had to duck my head down so Chris won't see me hahha! So the taxi went all the way down the hill and I ran to class in such a fluster. Then as I was running out I forgot my tablet in the locker. SO I had to run all the way back. I was halfway there already! Then finally met Chris and we cabbed to somewhere*. And I surprised him with all the presents and stuff. awww he nearly cried haha. But given his male egoism he didn't haha. Yeah. So first up was this basketball thing that he could hit his future nephew/niece with. Arhhhh it's actually a bball thing supposed to hit your back with like massage like that. Haha. Up next was the miniature bottle thing. With all the miniature scroll letters. Haha too bad he had a hard time getting them out hee hee. Then it was the belt. Of course the best is the last. The Oreo Cheesecake haha. You should have seen his face!!! That was a special moment maaaaan. Haha. He was like all smiley and stuff. Haha. Lovely moment...
~~~swoon~~~

I just realized that I had an awesome weekend haha. It all began on Friday (eh Friday can count or not ah? Anyway it’s awesome-mest-test-est. XD Considering that I could surprise Chris for his birthday. Sigh just wish that Friday was his actual birthday because we have no way to meet up to celebrate his birthday on Saturday 21/7/2007 sadly. But I still gave him a surprise in the end! Haha… with his group… so extra. I actually planned to bring him upstairs after people started folding bulletins downstairs and then ‘reveal’ a birthday cake and sing to him. That’s right SING. Whooooo I think that’s brave enough haha. So scared I zao xia. LOL. But he sang to me on my birthday in front of Daniel Koh and RQ anyways. Haha. And this time its just him and me lol. Ok wait. Rewind. We’ll get back to the part where I talk about what happened on Friday ok? Haha. Starting to get off-track here (:
K. On Thursday night actually Chris told me his daddy came back the previous night (gosh this is confusing XD) with an Oreo cheesecake from Spinelli. So guess where I got the idea from. Uhuh. Hahaha. So off went me the next day right after school to Raffles City Shopping Centre to find Spinelli and get ready to dig a whole in my purse on Oreo cheesecake. I chiong there but couldn’t find the stupid Spinelli. Then I think I walk around Raffles City Shopping Centre area to Swissotel there I think. Haha. Just to find #01-45. Café Cartel was #01-49 and stuff but then there was no Spinelli!!! So I ‘mustered all the courage I had” and approach this Café Cartel waiter and made a fool of myself saying
Me: “erm…do you know where’s #01-45???”
Waiter: “Hahhhh?!”
Me: “#01-45. Spinelli???”
Waiter: *blank*
Me: “er…”
Waiter: *glances nervously at Café Cartel’s signboard and points his finger at the #01-49 thingy.*
Me: …
Waiter: …
Me: *oh shit what if there’s no Spinelli then I have to cab to Harbour Front or the next nearest Spinelli in town!!!*
Me(again) (desperately): Spinelli……!
Waiter: “OHHH!”
Me: *hurhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*
Waiter: *points* “you go there then go there and the other side and there and Spinelli’s there.”
Me: *blur* “harh??”
Waiter: “ahh you go there…the go through there…then go the other side and there lor Spinelli there.”
Me: “Orh so I go through there.”
Waiter: “Ah yah.”
Me: “okayyyy thanks…!” *smiles*
Okay so I finally found Spinelli after bumping into many businessy looking people and a pregnant lady I think. And after crossing a scary zebra crossing. Haha. TADA! SPINELLI! Whooooooo! Hahaha. But there’s the other problem. I walked in but there didn’t seem to be any Oreo cheesecake. Crap. So I scanned through the look-through chiller/fridge/freezer (arhhhhh what does it matter anyway!!!) and there was like blueberry cheesecake…this weird looking cheesecake…more cheesecakes and I was starting to panic! OH FINALLY the OREO CHEESECAKE! The words so small la what do you expect! Hurrrrh. Yeah. And I was sooooo thankful that I could buy the ones in slices in case of the $44 1.5kg one mentioned in the website! Haha when I was researching about Spinelli’s Oreo Cheesecake in class I broke out into a sweat when I saw the only one picture and description they had was
A taste of childhood blah blah blah.
1.5 kg
$44
AHHH.
Thankfully I brought enough. Phew. Haha. Anyway it was such a relief. Which person can eat 1.5kg of cheesecake (oreo somemore)?!!!!!!!!!! Ok I think I’ll puke. Noooo it’s not that it’s not nice. I think too much of it makes me puke. Eww. Haha. Anyway it was such a wait for 2 slices of oreo cheesecake.
Man: “errr can I have this cake and 2 citrus?”
Waitress: “ok”
Daughter #1: “no I think I want a vanilla milkshake”
Waitress: “Er no vanilla milkshake.”
Man: “ok… other milkshakes?”
Waitress: well she said something about it not being very nice
Man: “err then can I have another juice?” *so he states another juice*
Daughter #2: “I don’t want the citrus.”
Me: *gawwwwwwsh I have to be back in school to meet Chris at 2.15pm! And it’s already 1.45pm. Can they make up their minds and drink water instead?!!!!*
Man: “ok so what do you want”
Daughter #2: she states what she wants
Me: I get fed up and starts playing with my phone because if I continues hearing their conversation I’m sure to scream at them haha joking I’m not that evil.
Man (after 2 minutes): ok nevermind. I’ll have 1 coffee 2 cakes and 2 citruses.
Waitress: Ok! Do take a seat.
Me: ARGHHHHH!!! Wasn’t that the initial order?!!!!! Pffffffffffffffffffffffft.
Finally it was my turn and I got my oreo cheesecakes. Paid for them. Again waited for them to box it up for me. Look for 2 candles and I realized I did not have any lighters. I could go and find them at marketplace anyway. No sweat (: So I walked out a delighted girl feeling all warm and fuzzy all over because I know Chris will be delighted as well (: it’s worth it.

hahaha doing pbl with janeen and sandra is damn funn can! haha! oooh janeen just burped. this is the atmosphere. hot guy doing loads of bball. neh neh dra and nah here laughing away like shit. our face all red. stomach all pain. HAHAHA! we super high now... we super noisy now lar. heh heh so funny. ouch. lol we super weird la. first we started being all weird cuz we were hungry hahaha then we were all crazy with vending machine. ESP me! Hahaha!!! Then now we kept toppling Nigel's peach soda. Haha! Later he sure will be wondering where it all went HAHA! now sandra and janeen are playing with each other's phone and sending msges to boyyyyys... HAHAHA! It's about retribution issues hahaha! Sabo man! Sheesh i haven't kena yet! whoooot! i'm in my own dreamland about me and chrissy :))
haha! damn fun man over here... endless laughter and er... crap and lobster. hahaha! just the occasional swim trunks turn-offs. hahaha. ok stop thinking that hannah is fantasising about some hawt boyfriend in swim trunks OKAY! hahaha... wait gonna go sandra's hse first

Draw your own conclusions from your ownself la. HEHEHEHE
Sandra
NEH NEH
and
ME!

when sandra's maid (minni i think) came down to save us with maggi mee. then janeen was like. What's the brand? Sandra and I: MAGGI LA! Nee: Oh IT'S A BRAND AH!

HAHAH! I CAUGHT SOMEONE DIGGING HER NOSE! AND I THINK SHE’S PLAYING WITH THE SHIT NOW. HAHA. GOLD DIGGER.
Omg I feel so mean. Anyways in Microsoft word now. Haha today quite high luh. In an evil way. Hor hor bitch. Ooh now someone acting sehhh. Wah slap slap slap. See I so violent right? Wahhh later sian. English Common Test. Thank God that there’s no summary writing. Not that I dunno how to do it or I loathe it or whatever, I just feel so lazy today. Huhhhh. Haha then just now got science prac also. I mean I don’t even know what I was doing! Haha. Yeah. It was quite funny la. Seeing people handling the deonised water. We’re supposed to tilt on the measuring cylinder slightly and not the deonised water right? Cuz we can just squeeze it and the deonised water will erm. Squirt out. Ewwww sounds wrong! HAHAHA!!!! ~~~~ wah then got ting xie also. I DO NOT CHAP 19! So many words lah~ At least Chinese teacher was kind enough to let us have like 15 minutes extra to study. J yay thanks then.
Today I shall not how any sign of being emo. Not that I dun feel emo but I tink showing it is saddening and too time wasting. Why must I purposely show everybody that I’m emo cuz of ***** ****** ***** absolute *******? Haha I did tell one person in class but there’s no point emoing about it la. That’s what I feel. Cuz I used to be like emoshit then I ended up regretting cuz then people might have a mixed conception about me being an attention seeker. Also cuz I emo and I still dun get anything out about it. Then when something’s exciting going on I still purposely carry on emoing then I feel like I missed out on a lot. Yeah yeah to have someone to be like
“ehhhh dun cry!!!” or
“why you emooo? Dun emo liao kaees??” or
“dun make me emoo la hannahhhh”
Etc etc you know better than me
I mean yeah as I was saying to have someone saying tha t to you is sweet and comforting. I dare not deny that cuz yeah I feel better too. And sometimes it’s ego-boosting and it makes you feel shiok. Like thinking “ hey yannoe those cool kids are like all about me now!” hahaha……. Yeah lol. But then sometimes it gets super superficial. Haha. Yeah. I mean sometimes it just feels like people are just saying all those stuff to you just to … “make sure they’re there and you know so you won’t later think otherwise about them” and then they walk away. Yup.

Hello! :D Qiqi here, HAHAHA. Wheee I tell you, Hannah is like the chioest and nicest person ever luh. (: Heehee I love Hannah loaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaddds! Okay bye. ;D

HAHAHA we were playing Lovest Thou Me during YF on Saturday night. LOL.
THE THING IS...
someone asked me: " Hannah, lovest thou me"
Me: "Noo!"
the someone: "then who do you love?"
Me: "Christopherr..."
Everyone elsse: "woooooooooo"
Hahahaha. TRUE WAAAAAAAD
But the thing is...
When the someone went to ask Chris: "Chris, lovest thou me"
Chris: "Noo"
the someone: "then who do you love?"
Chris: "Mabel."
Me" *thinking* AHHHHHHHHHHH SO SAD CHRIS DOESN'T LOVE ME...
Then throughout the entire game Chris and I kept sticking our tongues out at each other cuz i not fu qi.
Haha.
Then during refreshments i daoed him!
Hehehehheheh.
To be continued...

-the- blurrpoott
<3 Hannah <3

And bella thought this apply to her life...

It does right.... Haiz. No not the song...Not the bitch either hahha

YAY!
40th post.
Hahahaha...And Gladys is eating ROTI PRATA infront of me. And she says the egg one taste nicer than plain. AND THANK YOU RUIQI! *sarcastically* Ms Azrina asked ruiqi to state what is a change in matter. Then ruiqi said said that she already said 'tide'. Omg then Ms Azrina "decided that she liked me" *quoted from ruiqi* and said "Ok the girl beside you." That means Hannah Lai. Urgggghhhh. Anyways. A hungry girl can't think. Then so i said "weather". Then Ms Azrina said that someone said it already. Sian. So I was like shit shit shit cuz i really can't think. Then Ruiqi went "depletion of water" Oh gawwwwwwwwd I stood up and said "depletion of water" The class: HUHHHhhh??? Fine. Thank you ruiqi! ~~~~~~~ Good now she's exasperated with every word i type right here. Ok now she says she saved my butt. Then i stoooopidly listened to her AGAIN and said "condensation evaporation SUBLIMATION" heehheeee that was smart. Note: Sublimation came from my very own brain. It sounds scientific. I'm impressed. (:
The stupid printer in the com lab didn't work. I spent half an hour there but nothing printed. Sian... Wasted my entire recess! Oh well. This damsel in distress here got saved by a very very kind TA personel. (: So she took me to the TA office to print. I was supposed to pay $1.10 but she charged me $1 in the end. SEEEE! So kind!!! (: Yayness!

And i'm still hungry. Very. I didn't even eat breakfast. Thank you very much! Hahahhaha

-the- blurrpoott.
bella morena
chaoz!

I think the ROCK version of Pachebel's Canon In D is music's greatest moment in history!!! Urghhhhhhhhh no more the boring one that my piano teacher asks me to play. Or listen to. Yay!!! Thank you!!! Call the lion dancers! Call Uncle Bernard! Call my mother! uhhhh. Call Keene Chen! JOKING!!! Hahaha Lol. Lame.

here's my poem.
DON'T =.=" me.
DRAFT 1
Look at us now
Where we are right now
I see you walking down the aisle
With daddy arm in arm

Madly in love with you
In this world so sane
We never knew we’d be here right here
Eleven years down the road

It took so long
We’re now here this far
Never thought this would come true
Never thought I’d be happier

Years of struggles
Gallons of tears
Hurt and fears
We’ve made it all through

We thought we’d never fit in
We thought it would never happen
We felt like giving up at times
Thought it was the end

We found each other again
And the finding made us strong
We proved to the whole world
Dreams still come true

should i dao him?
should i show my excitement cuz he msged me?
we can't meet anymore.
probably one day...
everything would shatter...
i'm am really glad i have him...
but we can't meet anymore...
i'm scared.
i just realised the severity of this...
i'm really scared.
what am i going to do?!
what am i going to...
i dunno.
i dun dare to talk to him... is it because i'm afraid of breaking this horrible news to him?
should i go live on my own on talulah island?
where the hell is that?!
arghhh
sorry.
Nevermind.
I want to talk to him.
I know i need him.
Now.
I know i need to have him by my side.
Even physically.
I know.
But i can't do that anymore.
I can't meet him anymore...
:'(
I'm really afraid.
That we might have to wait till i'm 21
no no no no!!!
i can't do this.
I dun want to do this.
I'm being tailed by a PI!
My mom's gonna see all the pictures.
Evidence.
No.
I cannot take this.
I need him now.
Oh Lord Jesus please help me... I need him by my side. Lord you know my plight. You know I won't be able to take this... You know i won't be able to pick myself up anymore...
I just want everything to be normal and okay again...
Remembered that I said I just want everything to be simple?
I really want it to be that way.
I want everything to be ok!
Is that wrong?
Is it so wrong to love someone?
Is it so wrong to meet someone you really care about?
Is it so wrong to just be me??
I don't want to live a life my parents would want me to live.
yes. ok.
i have to obey my parents and stuff and if they tell me not to do certain things, ok reasonable enough
but sometimes i wanna live my own life too!!!

I bet HE won't visit
THE blog.
So that means HE
might want something else.
And HE will know
the meaning
of...
Argh. OK. It didn't sound right. Let's try it again, shall we?

I bet HE would never
want to see me again
I bet HE would never ever wanna
talk to me again
And 10cents per day
or even more
that I put aside
to hear HIS voice again
is so damn wasted.
It was the last time
I'd ever do that.

I won't cry azalea
I won't cry
No it's not about the bloody sexless life seriously
I didn't say you were stupid.
He's daoing me
I don't know why.
I'm sorry I do not feel like talking zae
So you're right beside me now...
Thank you :)
It seems weird
how suddenly you feel all alone again.
"Yeah. Ya. At home"
"Sigh"
"Bye"
"Bye."
Azalea tell me what to do.
It hit bad on me
like
15 miniutes ago?
I did not want to talk to anybody
except politely declining Jolin's invite to SJI on the 21 July.
21 July!!!
And she HAS to remind me that it was SOMEONE'S birthday
I'm NOT going to cry.

Even if my mom
hired a PI
she got someone to follow me around
And take pictures of what I'm doing
Oh for goodness sake she's my mom!!!
my own blood MOTHER!!!
and i had to endure a 2 hour talk last night from her.
Then she asked me to write down on a bloody piece of paper
to tell her what freedom i want
oh gawwwwwwwwwwwwd yes i want my freedom.
So i said I wanted to go to YF and Church every weekend.
Fair enought?
Somemore.
I want to be able to go out with my friends maybe once or twice a week.
OK? Maybe not.
And another little thing I forgot what it was.
So. She said she gave me until next wedneday to have all the freedom I want.
This morning in the car.
My dad say Ok freedom until next wednesday.
Oh gawwwwwwwws wait a minute
Why a I typing so slowly
and my left hand seems to be shaking
blehz.
I hate this.
My dad said.
OK go out with anybody you want
EXCEPT christopher.
URRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!
I already have a PI tailing me.
What else do you want???
I hate this..........
But i don't wanna cry
Cuz once I cry
people will start thinking that
i'm emoshit. And this is all like what
Trying to get attention?!!
I dun need those kind of shit ok.
Some people blog about me
Tell the whole world "who hannah is"
I know i'm not that kindda of person.
I hate this ok.
I'm probably in a facade everytime I'm with my friends.
But at home.
I'm my own self.
Facade?
I try to be happy
I try to be a girl who
is happy all the time
I know that I have Azalea around
She's a damn good and hawwwwwwwwt friend....
She is.
If only Justin knew how to treasure her properly.
If I was a guy
I'd make her mine :)

I come from a family
that is....
Nvm.
Since I was 7,
My family started to fall apart.
My dad...
Nevermind. Up to your own imagination.
I'd probably tell Azalea only.
My mom obviously affected la.
Well my brother was born when I was 7
I pity him
I feel sorry for him
Cuz he never really knew what a real family was.
Neither do I anymore.
I used to be so strong
for heaven's sake...
Now after so many things has happened
I had to learn it the hard way
and realise stuff the way not many people want to
Oh my gawwwwwwwd i cried
Urgh.
I dun want to cry cuz I want to feel strong.
I dun wanna cry cuz I want myself to know that
I dun need anybody else to comfort me
I can be alone.
Happy.
So today
I'm going to Orchard
Hmm.
Everybody has cca...
So I'll go alone.
I dun wanna go with anybody else
except Azalea
oooooooh I love her. I'll wait :)
errr do i sound les?
Azalea marry meeee???
hahaha
she just agreed
Hahahahaha.
yay i lurbbe u lao....
gong/po?
pong.
Ok!
Hello laopong :)
Her idea ahh the laopong!
We were divorced once after a 3 minute marriage.
Scandal.
Hahas.
Dun worry laopong I won't cry...
Cuz I know that I can only comfort myself...
And if I'm unable to...
You'd be there :)
And IF you're not there
And IF I can't comfort myself
I'll fall

sianess.
agitated.
and the little girl goes pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffft allllll the wayyyy home.

omg so sad... :'(
took it from jovina...who took it from mingxuan...
wrong to test?
16:35
read this. took it from mingxuan. i think it's very nice as in how the thing flows, but the ending very sad. ):one boy and one girl.
the best of friends.
From elementary to high school
from beginning to end.
Through all those years
their friendship grew.
They both felt the same,
but neither knew.
Each waking moment
since the day they met.
They both loved each other
sunrise to sunset.
He was all she had
in her terrible life.
He was the one
who kept her from her knife.
She was his angel,
she made him smile.
Though life threw him curves,
she made it all worth while.
Then one day
things went terribly wrong.
The next few weeks
were like a very sad song.
He made her jealous
on purpose he tried.
When the girl asked,
"Do you love her?"
on purpose he lied.
He played with jealousy
like it was a game.
Little did he know
Things would never be the same.
His plan was working
but he had no clue.
How wrong things would go,
the damage he would do.
One night she broke down,f
eeling very alone.
Just her and the blade,
no one else home.
She dialed his number,
he answered,
"Hello"She told him she loved him
and hung up the phone.
He raced to her house
just a minute too late.
Found her lying in blood,
her heart had no rate.
Beside her was a note,
in it her confession.
Her love for this boy,
her only obsession.
As he read the note,
he knelt down and cried.
Grabbed her knife,
that night they both died.
She was found in his arms,
both of them dead.
Under her note
his handwriting said:
"I loved her so,she never knew.All this timeI loved her too."

OMG WO YAOOOOOOOOO!!!
go here http://secrets-shoppe.net/
and here http://community.livejournal.com/candypulp/?skip=20
aaaaand here http://www.kidpirate.com/
aaaaaaaaaaaaand here! http://www.papergirlsshop.blogspot.com/
oh yes. i almost forgot. the accesories shop on the fourth floor( i think) selling Korean stuffs are darrrrrrn nice and
WO YAOOOOO!!!

OMG NO WAY>
NO WAY NO WAY NO WAY>
actually
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!
cuz DO YOU KNOW WHYYYYYYYYY???????
read this. from mingen's blog.
Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Yay!!
What have I been doing throughout my Holidays? You guessed it. Band, band and more band.
Thank God tomorrow is the last day of band camp.Holidays are meant for sleeping more than 9 hours per day instead of our normal schoolday 5 hours, not meant for you to get up at 6.30 to go to school for marching practises. Besides homework.But wait, I'm not here to tell you this. I'm blogging because I'm damn happy about what the band teacher told us. Well crescent is moving from MLG to uh... heucampus or whatjamacallit program because it is more stable than MLG and the sec 2s are going to experiment this program and guess what? WE GET TO STAY IN BED AND HAVE OUR LESSONS FOR 2 DAYS AT HOME!HOW GREAT IS THAT?!?Imagine eating potato chips openly in your own home while having lessons on the computer without being scolded. Or even doze off during class without receiving a pink ticket. Or you can be playing Maplestory for all I care and not get caught!!Oh yeah, oh yeah. But the other levels still have to go to school those 2 days. Sad.But aiya we all still try to pay attention ok? 2C1 very guai one, right?

OMG I AM SOOOOOO HAPPY!!!
i mean... We get to blog and go online for all we wan and NOT get caught. Unless they come up with this dreaded system of tracking what is on our comp screens like student VC. hmmmmphhhh.

Ahhhhh feel so broke......sian.

Omg how haawwwwwwwwt is that. He the one with the Efward thang. Yeah. Hot. I tell u. Sizzling. hahas. that's what zae hua hua said. Look at those features maaan. I mean whooooo he's half indo half chinese. Isn't that hawwterrr??? Heeheexxx!!!

OMG I LOVE NADEE (AND CHRIS TOO)
SHE'S MY FIRST BUYER!!!!!!!!! 6.15 PM NOW AND BARELY 10 MINS SINCE I STARTED THE 'BID'
OK JESSE MCCARTNEY'S POSTERS ARE SOLD.
2 OF THEM ARE GONE
HAHAS
NOT GONNA TELL U THE PRICE I SOLD IT FOR HAHAS
GOOD NEW'S IS
THE HALF NAKED POSTER OF HIM IS GONNA START AT A BID OF $3.
DESCRIPTION: JESSE JUST CAME OUTTA THE WATER...HAIR DRIPPING AND ALL...ABS EXPOSED AND STUFF. heehee!!!!!

OK CHAOZ!!!

PEOPLE!!!
I'm just hit with an idea on the head.
I'm gonna start selling things.
ON EBAY!
NO.
I'll just start it small.
With a blog, maybe.
Ok.
I'll Use this blog for the moment here.
I'm currently decluttering my room now. And found some cute stuff which are still in good condidtion. E.g: Posters. I wanna get rid of all my posters heehee.
So if you guys want anything, tag me on my uh. Tagboard. Yeah. So if i have, I might be able to get them for you. Probably at a max of a dollar each. UHUH. So i'm starting out with posters now.
so right here i have Jesse Mccartney (medium), Hilary Duff (medium), Jesse Mccartney (big), Simple Plan (big), (uhhhh) Cole and Dylan (big), Wang Lee Hom (big).
Probably posters will start at $2 or smth hahas
So that's about it. I'll bring em to school everyday. IF anyone wanna have it. I dunno why i'm doing this. Hahaha.
You guys gotta tell me wad you all looking around for too. Cuz my room (and house) got quite alot of stuff that i don't mind selling at a low price. it's a hobby, not a mini career. Hahas.

LOVE YA!

Makaning in Johor Bahru... Very nice seafood! Go there like every year lolss. 2 of my cousins are there and the other kids are also my cousins. From Ipoh. Hahas. There are 2 of my uncle's there and their wives. All my mom's side. Oh yeah! And my Aunt(in red stripey blouse) was pregnant. Hahas. Way back in March, this photo. During March hols. One day trip, but i fell sick. So darn sick hahas... And now i developed a phobia for seafood. And sotong. Eww.

People pleaseeeeeee forget how i look in that photo...Omg my hair was so screwed tooo... Look at my cousin!!! Wan Xuan... She lurrrrrves me! HA! She didn't want to be carried by my mom. XD

ok science now!
shall continue laterrrrrr

Haha found a whole lot of pictures of me in my comp haha! Long-lost photos eh.